Here it goes…

Oh man, I’ve got to get it out there! An introvert can only go so far before they feel like their head is going to explode. Any other introverts out there? Can ya feel me? I’m a much better writer than I am talker. This blog is going to be an incredible outlet. Brad and I are going to share in the writing responsibilities! He’s a great writer… stay tuned!

But back to the whole getting it out there. We’re selling our 6 month old, brand new construction, fully customized to our family, beautiful 2400 square foot ranch home. Yep, you read that right. Still with me? Or have you quickly exited the blog thinking we’re completely insane?! If you’re still hanging in there let me explain why…

These past 6 months have been, in a word, hard. We are by no means in a bad spot financially. We’re actually doing just fine. We can make the payments on the mortgage. We can pay all of our bills. But, to put it bluntly, we don’t want to anymore. For months we’ve been talking about our situation and analyzing if this is how we want our life to be. Do I want to continue working full-time for the rest of my life so that I can help raise our family in a big, brand-new house? Do I want to give up that time with my children? Do we want to forego incredible vacations and experiences as a family so that we can live in a big, brand-new house? When we’re on our death beds, are we going to be glad that we put so much into a house? Or are we going to be laying there going, “if only…” And then it dawned on us. This is not what we want.

It’s scary to say that. There’s a sort of embarrassment that goes along with making this decision. It’s hard (like, really hard) to tell people what we’re doing.  Some have responded with, “Good for you! That’s fantastic!” and others have responded with “You’re doing what?!”. But this isn’t for anyone else. This is for our family. We’ve simply had a change of heart. Our priorities have changed. I ache to be home with my daughter when I’m at work. I want to travel the world with my family. Brad and I want to take our children to Disney World. We want to have experiences with our kids. For us, that’s what  we want our life to be about.

We started building our house when I was pregnant with Eliana. I couldn’t fathom at the time how much I’d love her, how much I’d want to be home with her, how much I’d want to be there to see her grow. I already feel so much guilt for missing out on the first 15 months of her life. And Brad kept telling me, “If we build this house, you’re going to have to work full-time.” I thought it wouldn’t be an issue. I thought I wouldn’t mind working 40 hours a week at all. I kept telling him it would be fine. Boy was I wrong. Now that our second is on the way, I find that I want to be at home even more. I’m not going back to work full-time after our second baby is born. And, therefore, we’re down-sizing!

This has been tough on our marriage. This is the first real trial we’ve gone through. Building a house together was cake compared to this decision! There’s been a ton of arguments (I’m sure pregnancy hormones are a bit to blame). But I’m lucky enough to be married to a man who loves his family so much. I can’t even believe how much I lucked out. He’s the best father and husband in the world. But we’ve talked about it for months. Literally, months. And we came to the decision that this is best. And we’re so incredibly excited to start our new adventure. The decision to down-size is probably going to save our marriage.

Another big part of down-sizing is wanting to be financially free. By down-sizing, we’re going to be able to pay off the debt we have much quicker than if we stayed here in the new house. Financial freedom is a huge goal for us. I dream of a day when we have no car payments, no credit card debt, no student loans and our mortgage paid off. Drooling here, folks. Totally drooling.

The stress of Eliana’s eczema has also been a big reason I want to be home more. Her diet is so restrictive right now due to us trying to find out what triggers her eczema. It’s a lot to handle and I need to be there more to help figure it out. I feel at my wits end with her eczema. I swear it was looking 75% better last week. Today, it’s as bad as ever. I thought for sure we had found the solution. Maybe we’re just going through another bought of her system ridding itself of the bad stuff. I have no idea. We’re completely in the dark. It’s only been a few weeks so I’m still hopeful, but goodness gracious this is frustrating. If eczema were a person, I’d kick it in the you-know-whats. Twice.

Alright, so that’s our life right now! We put our house on the market on Saturday and now we wait… I’m naturally a huge worry-wart so this is not fun for me. I’ve never sold a house before so this is brand new territory. I ask Brad every 20 minutes if it’s bad that we haven’t had anyone request a showing yet. He assures me every time that it’s only been a day. Calm down, Jessy. It’s all going to be okay.

As soon as we get an offer we can work with on our house, we’ll start looking for the right house for us! Fingers crossed that there’s something out there that will work. I don’t need it to be perfect, but I do need it to have good bones.

I love to write. It feels like therapy. I have a hard time putting thoughts into spoken word so this blog is going to be a great thing. Even if no one else in the world reads this, I’m going to keep going. That’s our family’s goal now – do more of what makes us happy.

As for the title, Uncomplicating the Complicated, I think it’s perfect. I don’t think “umcomplicating” is a word, but it should be. But that’s our mission. We’re going to simplify. Here goes nothing!


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